I JUS LOST MYSELF!

HELLO!before i start....

EVERYONE IN SG WHO'S EATING MAC!before u order pls call me or sms me so to help me in my quest to collect my doraemon toy!!!its only 2 bucks with every purchase!

PLS PLS PLS!!!


ok now back to the present....THX CHERYLL AND HAZIQ AND QIUJING AND ALL FOR GETTING ME MY GIFT.

and now...to the golden embarassing moment! i tink it was wed,i was so emo for tat nite, i drank a little more than i could take and ended up some pp had a hard time taking care of me=((
now tat i'm sober again,i feel so ashamed!!!i tink i wont have e guts to talk to the twins face to face again...and plus now i'm seriously considering to go for e picnic at marina barrage coz i really dun wanna get caught in a awkward moment!!!like hey yo,u were like looking aft me when i was puking my ass off with my tummy burnt by alcohol.

oh man.was the first time i puked aft drinking relatively much.never want to puke EVER AGAIN.its like so painful when the alcohol hits my tummy...last time my tummy suffered so badly was 3 weeks ago.and even then i didn't puke!AND it didn't hurt so @$%&^@%^ much...

but really,i was a little upset tat nite.guess things that were kept inside me kinda built up.sighhh....

OMG CASS WHY DID U JUS MADE A FOOL OF URSELF INFRONT OF PP TAT U WEREN'T BEST BUDDIES WITH!!!rawr

its like back to prom nite where i couldn't even stand up and i said "i'm not drunk,i jus drank"

that was CLASSIC.hahahaha

but then again,i find myself finding i could drink more than in my jc days but yet less than when i first started heavy drinking...HMMM mayb its a sign.

i need someone to confide in,even when i'm drunk,i feel as tho the sad stuff keep coming back!aargh.its over alrdy,why does it still HURT me!!!

its over
its over!!!

i hope i never have to think about that incident again.It made me cried so much then,I hope it never will make me cry again...

Speaking of which, SHOULD I GO FOR E HALL OUTING???!!!

stormy with a hint of SADNESS

i tink those who studies at ntu knows wats gg on.its results day.

for once in my life,i'm not gg to complain saying that they aren't being fair coz some pp took mc to escape the exams while i dutifully went for all.For once i'm not gonna sit there and complain that i should have done beta and that i must have been SUPER ill on e day of the exam.

I. AM. TO. BLAME. FULLY.

all those nights of partying,playing, skipping lessons and all the while behaving as tho i'm still in jc with the mentality that i can always catch up.they contributed to this.
All my life i've been naughty,skipping classes,skipping lectures even for the simplest reasons like(i wanna eat) and then i had no choice but to play catch up.

why cant i be sensible and go for classes for once?be humble and listen to the teacher instead of gg 3 or 4 steps ahead?

i cant think straight now.Suddenly i jus feel so suffocated and angry with myself.disappointed?
mayb. disappointed that i couldn't catch up in time?yes.Angry that i'm still holding on to the play-first-study-later mentality? YES.

now i tink of e guy who said i was stupid and cant possibly score well.Well maybe he's rite.but den he's e guy who mc-ed a subj and den S/U another subject.I may cry tat its unfair for him to compare with me considering my workload is so much heavier.But then,i cant deny that i can also choose to do the same.tat infact,i'm really jus a stupid idiot blob!



AAAAAARGGGGHHHHHH.suddenly a sense of deja vu.its the exact same scenario as A levels.

kill me pls

HI DARRLINGS!!
i really love tis blog coz no one reads it!!!HAHAHA
but then again,I'M SO ANGRYYYYY...

sigh i spend 22 bucks to cab from wengchee's house to sch yester coz there's trng this morn!but den my flu got so much worser that i couldn't go trng=((((
damn it,i was really looking forward to it coz its e last trng before pp go off to aussie
speaking of weng chee bdae parrty,i tink his galfriend is sooooo CUTE!!! she's like super shy and all.HAHAHA

damn cute!

Anw my ex tells me tat his fren saw me playing hall games yester!WOW!apparently e reason was coz i look super like her fren(okayy, i didn't noe i look so common=> mayb like filipino)
lol
but in any case...MAYBE i'm FAMOUS=)))hahaha

yester hockey games really showed me how DAMN big a BLOODY hockey court is.ITS SO HUGE LA!EVEN MY TOUCH RUG FIELD IS NOT SO HUGE!!!mannnn,i missed 3 trng alrdy.coach must be hopping madd=((

but then again,i'm jus a lousy shadow player=( feel so unimportant la.u get wat i mean?like as tho i die oso e team dun nid me...HAHA.speaking of which i'm not really bonded to the team too.mayb last time even if i suffered a heart attack,i'll still go trng coz got e crazy touch rug frens i'll love to stick ard with...now its jus like some one man show.
well,things change and i must adapt.in the past,friendship was wat kept the passion burning(even if we lost,we were still damn happy).Now,its the responsibility to keep the winning title and the want to improve myself.APPARENTLY.but honestly,sometimes i lose focus coz i feel so lonely(not that i should be feeling tat)=(

not that the team is bad or wat,EVERY GAL IS A STAR. its jus that our focus is shifted elsewhere.

anw,during the IH games yester i accidentally whack a guy so hard with a hockey ball he yelled.MAN I'M REALLY SORRY.he jus said "i tink i noe u!u're from sports camp one!"

which is true

but i couldn't react properly coz i was tinking:
1)OH MAN SO SORRY TO HIT U!!!
2)OH YEA HOW U NOE I FROM SPORTS CAMP HUH?COZ I NVR SEE U BEFORE

which means if i spoke it would sund like tis:
"OH SORRY YEA SORRY HOW SORRY U SORRY NOE SORRY I SORRY FROM SORRY SPORTS SORRY CAMP SORRY HUH?SORRY COZ SORRY I SORRY NVR SORRY SEE SORRY U SORRY BEFORE"

which will obviously show that i'm a BIMBO.HAHAHA.but i jus act dao coz i rather act dao than to act bimbo=)hee hee
so erm to e guy (which prob wont read this)I'M REALLY SORRY!!!

Ramblings of a battle weary girl

Haven't been blogging for very long but then again my life hasn't been exactly exciting!
Haven'y met my mentor so it means i cantCANT SEE MY EXAM RESULTS on the 30th!wat a disaster,should have thought of that before trying to add smart and ignoring my mentor.

but then again,wat kinda stupid rule is that?
i mean wat if the foreigners are in china and msia how?
fly back to see e mentor?

Anyway,i tink i really hafta say this! i eel tat keeping quiet is so hardd! how can anyone keep so much inside them without bursting?i've been feeling a little tired and weary of jus trying and trying.But then again,i'm a whiny gal so i am really HONESTLY trying my best to stop my incessant whining.

But anw christmas is a blast! other than the irritating nagging of my parents i finally get to rest after all my recent parties.Guess i've been playing a little hard..

but.honestly.i'm.trying.to.stop.

give
me
time

anyone wanna go drink or club anytime soon,drop me a msg=))

Hi everyone~
i've officially change to this blog for now coz i still dunno how to shut down the other!!!
anyway,do link me if u can and den type ur blog add or something so i can link u pp=)
as for now,little miss dumb mut figure out how to use this=)