WHEEE!!! i seriously have a badd case of shoppaholic woes and mugger-wanna-be-syndrome.

my sis jus came back from bangkok...WITHHHHHHH C-L-O-T-H-E-S!!!i noe wat u'll say(like duh)

but its really uber super cuteeee!!!its like super me and really comfy,somehow i tink everyone is mortified at my many tshirts and shorts.i never seem to dress lady like.oh wells,sorry pp but i'll TRY to be lady like.

speaking of which,i tink there is evidence i grew fatter.hence the incentive to sign up for a slimming programme is even greater.dont u jus LOVEEEE being me? so drama la my life.

anw,i was broadcasted in razor tv,like super unglam,malayu looking and damn bimbotic.its for e bloody carwash to raise awareness of the main cause of death in women is actually heart related causes.=)i'm fammmousss.YA .RITE.

lols anw,i've been really interested in french.some how,sudd e fighting spirit in me jus burned up recently.its like i really wanna have e top of e world feeling i had last time.like good in studies,have a great bf,fit looking, good in sports,alot of frenz....which were sadly a thing of the past.i want it all back and i've never felt hungrier than now.mayb my tummy's growling...JUS KIDDING!!!


oh man.feeling really intimidated when i look at e hill of work i needa do.its e same feeling when i bump into tzu wei.E UBER tall guy from hall....
FEAR.

shhhh dun let him noe.i must act tough=)

i'm feeling a little off now...

i tink i suck at touch rug and i dun even deserve to be in e list.mayb i'm jus some extra person that they need.

they gave out e excuse forms for e ivp today,apparently i'm a shadow player but my name is not on e list.

they said it was an oversight but den again even pp they haven't seen for ages are in the list.maybe they are right but den again mayb its teling me something.

in addition i jus screwed up trng today.i really didn't wan to go but i guess i went there jus to be a idiot.YES I'M A IDIOT.even simple steps like pass-switch-short pass-bump or dump, i couldn't get it into my head.i was playing blindly like a fool and that jus show how much i should jus quit and not be a liability to the team.

everyone has off days but den again i tink i had more off days than anyone else.and i feel so demoralised playing with them coz everyone is damn good,my mistake seem to magnify a million times.i was nothing but a barrier and a hindrance to them.

it wouldn't make a diff even if i quit.

i need to start thinking seriously if i should stay on and be ntu touch rug team stumbling block in everything.

and jus when i need some help in getting my morale up , i feel so ignored in everything.so tell me pp,wat the fuck am i to u?

jus a extra person?a loser that should quit?or jus some random person u tink tat is worth nothing?i dont feel needed at all,not by my frenz, not by e team and not by anything.

i never felt so down before

I FINALLY MANAGED TO TAKE A BREATHER TO REFLECT!!!
2009 has been a shittity shittity yr and yet quite nice i suppose,bittersweet?

1.got a uber great injury on my thigh (still not ok yett)!
2.missed about half of sports camp...rawrrrrr.
3.got suspected h1n1
4.broke up with my bf like super early in e yr,and on 1st yr anniversary too!!!
5.Took up many jobs,like a redemption counter at a christmas candy house,relief teacher,sales for a watch company,sales at bridal veil,and temp taking.
the best gotta be e candy house job=)) and the worst,is a tie between a relief teacher and sales at watch company.THE FUCKING supervisor at e watch company was sooo loser-ish.like o my gawd

6.sprained my ankle,got a hell spur
7.HORRIBLE ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE FITNESS
8.weight gain of like 8kg??(and it still is clinging on to me)
9.became slightly alcoholic and depressive
10.made loads of frenz!!(which is great!but somehow sounds familiar-.-")
11.missed hall camp but yea i guess i still noe hall pp?
12.did caroling total AWESOMEZNESS
13.became a shadow player for touch rug,WHICH REALLY SUCKED!!!coz i dunno if my hall stay is confirm
14.my uncle died
15. my exams wonderfully FAILED


So there,a perfectly HORRIBLE 2009!!!

this two songs suddenly describe my feelings all of a sudden=) i shall leave it up to ur imagination
but then again these two shows the reality and yet the dream which of coz i rather have+)HAHAH



(teardrops on my guitar)
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see
What I want and I need
And everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful
That girl he talks about
And she's got everything
That I have to live without

Drew talks to me
I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
I can't even see
Anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love
He's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

Drew walks by me
Can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

She better hold him tight
Give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes
And know she's lucky 'cause

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

So I drive home alone
As I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down
And maybe get some sleep tonight

'Cuz he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing
Don't know why I do

He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into
Drew looks at me
I fake a smile so he won't see

(love story)
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you